SPELL IT BACKWARD!

hello.
i'm finally getting busy working after coping at home every single day and spending away all my savings(on i don't know what). i have been working every single day except for one, when i sleep thru my entire day without food. hahaha and i will still be working every single day till CNY. why?! because i'm left with no more money and no one is gonna support my living anymore!!! AND ADULT FARE IS F. EXPENSIVE!!!!!!!!! i'm living in stress now because i can't shop. i need so many pretty dress, accessories, shoes, bags... i wanna cut, dye and highlight my hair... SIGH.

anw. still in fish and co. NO WHY LA. i know pay damn low. but i'm just working for like, 2 more months and no other places will want such a temmmmporary server. and still fish and co because i worked before and some of my friends are still there. it's fun working with them, because all the gays there are damn bitchy and hilarious. hahahahahaha! love listening to them cracking all kinds of jokes(btw, it's not offensive!) BUT WELL, there are still some really... unbelievably awful people. but it's normal la! in all kinds of jobs there will be people who aren't real, who aren't doing their jobs. SENIORITY. all the places out there talks about seniority. that's why it doesn't really matters if you are capable(at least for the first week), as long as you worked long enough, you have the say. but good thing is, time will shows. seniority won't holds you too long. anywhere, everywhere. alllll the places are the same la! in working society, hardly anyone is real. we just gotta learn.

HAPPY NOTE!!! I STILL LOVE WORKING WITH FUN PEOPLE!
AND I'M EXCITED ABOUT EATING PINEAPPLE TARTS!!!!!!!!!
ANDDDDD, I'M SO HAPPY THAT VALENTINES' DAY FALLS ON CNY, BECAUSE I WON'T BE ALONE! HEHEHE.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY! :D:D:D

today, i miraculously woke up by a call in the morning(because i always sleep like as i am dead) and it was dewei who called me from England and we have a really long and good chat, even after not seeing each other for an entire year, we seems to have alot to say. and i found out that he actually called many times from England and always didn't manage to get thru. we chatted from myself, to my family, to his family, to himself and his gf, we actually spent 2 whole hours chatting and he even chatted with my mum. hahaha. the feeling its... more like catching up with a long lost friend. he told me that if everything goes on well, he'll get marry with his gf right after his studies. i feel so incredibly happy for him, because that's the life he has always wanted.

all has been good, and as i was talking to my mum about dewei's new life. she started digging up about our past, our break up. it freaking annoyed me to f. max! can't my mum pay more attention to my feeling? i never like to talk about unhappy stuff, mainly, it's pointless. i dare to share and laugh together with them about how stupid we used to be but don't ever mention anything about crying, break up and whatever shit it is. everyone is leading their own life now, we are happy as it is. even if i have a choice, i will not want to go back to the past, because i've grown, i've learnt.

esp after a serious love-hate relationship with junwei for that coming 1 year, i want to take a rest. i think i've learnt enough, each lesson seems to cost too much hurts and tears. it's almost impossible to describe and i don't know how long this fear will follow me thru. so, i'm gonna slow down my pace, i want to have my dream come true, i want to start flying around to different countries and take a good break for 2 years before i start studying again.

YES,
A BRAND NEW LIFE! (:(:(:

friend,

we've been through so much, together. met so many different people. gotten hurt and stood up again. this time, i hope both of us can go through this together. TOGETHER! i believe it's not very tough because its never too tough for we will help each other, cover each other, listen to each other and understand each other, as always. love you girl.

<3

I MADE ANOTHER BIG DECISION TO GO DOWN THE SIA INTERVIEW TOGETHER WITH MY ERJIE DESPITE MY SPLITTING HEADACHE. I KNEW I WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE IT BECAUSE I'M STILL SUFFERING MUCH FROM HANGOVER. I REACHED THERE AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE(THANK GOD STILL IN TIME) AND I SPENT HOURS TO WAIT FOR MY TURN. I EVEN SLEPT ON THE CHAIR BECAUSE I TOTALLY CANNOT FOCUS AND I'M DEHYDRATING. BUT...... I GOT IT THROUGH!!!

I FREAKING GOT IT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!